Danged If I Diz

When I try to fall asleep

My mind wanders off

My stilled thoughts don't stray

Though more than not,

Things can be quite a disarray

If comforts were blossoms and daisies askew

We'd all be confetti

In the glamour of the lights in yours

Your eyes that glisten with fascination

Hope, wisdom, peace

All that and more

Glitter redemption in wakes of solid gold

All too much so that we can't hold

Statues of fortune that once before have been sold

When light hits my eye,

It only raises the threshold

Sleep winders wander-lustly about my brow

As I'm sunken beneath the pages of my melodic howl

I turn aside and see my frown

One side a bulk, and the other a brute

Still there are those as fickle as the flute

So encapsulating....

Down to their very roots

A bitter savor

And bring with it growth

It's a medicine for me,

Because could I grow old?

Sleep is difficult

Age is as well

I lost some pace some while ago

But I guess you can have a second wind at all this

Because my mind does this thing

Where it never....

It never quits.

Whenever I think about it, I just get upset

The next second, you could be gone

Life goes on

I cringe with barely any expression

I lose a piece of me

But what of it physically

And my will to survive...

Even at the time in my life where it's most crucial to stay alive

I'm torturing myself and wish to subside

Yet the cowardice is shown in the quake of my lips

I'm defeated, bore down to my hips